today

"aku masih bisa berdiri&hidup dengan baik ada atau ngga adanya kamu. hap bangkit. terimakasih untuk cerita dgn tinta hitam kamu:')" 

you don't know me so well like you said to me shut up your mouth pls;)

"Di dalem gerombolan jangan ada gerombolan, dijamin pasti hancur dari salah satu gerombolan itu. liat aja" ☹

Today!;;D

hello! just posted freak picture with them (read: Ka Tyas&Oleeet). this pose is taked after we see Breaking Dawn on Royal!:D yes i'm already BreakingDawn-ing~~~~ omoooo jcob is more handsome much much much than before!he is look manly♥. jacob have a brownies  skin whereas edward? he has a white skin. i like man with him brownies skins. so, so, so? if i am is Bella swan sure i'll choice jcob than edward *eaa

don't shocked to see how silly me & how beautifull she is! (Read: Ka Tyas) honestly, we don't know how use there camera so, many picture taked accidentally. those studio is different between studio ever i see (i'm so stranger with the pc, it doesn't touch screen&the loading... argh! it's take a long time to shoot)  the conclusion is.....i'll never back to go there hwehehe *no offense*-_- and i'm realize i'm so black, i must have a spirit to save my skin from ultraviolet rays.this not sweet this so black!!!!!!! see?

padaaaaaaaaaaa checkitdot! 

Ka Tyas. pretty rite?

see me it's taken with accidentally.-.

i'm so black than olit. it's dangerous!!

Xo, Uca♥

When I'm with you, I feel so safe.
 

Like I'm home.

Stupid me!

I always fly high in whom later dropped. What do you think? sick? course. But what I think you did not necessarily taste. Maybe everyone can say 'you're not the best for me' but I always try to make you the best.

Try to open your eyes you have me here who love you. You never feel or how? you numb bleak to me. This is very sick. Will I pass it all?

Will I?
Will I?
Will I?
All depends on me. But I already love you 

People can be blinded by love. And I began to experience what is said by those words. Too heavy to knowthat without restraint has ended. I am like a blind eye to all this reality

Could you find out what I think. I was wrong? maybe you already know what I think but you like to pretend do not know about all this. Evil? maybe not that bad but I heart you are evil

When you think this feeling like my heart is feeling your heart. I want time with you but that is notapproved. But I always wanted to make you happy with what I do. Will you be mine. I want to own youMaybe it's like a nightmare for me to love people who can't love myself. Oh god give the best for me. If him can't be mine, let him get the best.

                                                                                                                                          Uca♥

Mine Look Like Yours

When everyday look still and everything look exactly the same

When the lights go on and off

When the sun smile too bright and I don't even notice

And when the night feels like afternoon,

Well, I haven't sleep a wink.

What is the reason to sleep anyway?

You're not here to sing me a lullaby,

hug me along the way.

You're erasing yourself in my future,

You make me believe you wont come back

And I'm too tired trying to make you realize,

I'll always be there beside you because I care.

Me, always put a good faith on you.

You, teach me an extraordinary pain that my heart never knew.

You make mine look like yours.

We are now the same.

Nothing to give anymore.

Because its already broke and gone away.

I don't want you to know,

how much I miss you.

Because you don't miss me at all.

I don't want you to know,

how much I love you.

Because you don't love me the way I do.

I want you to know,

Saying goodbye is hurt.

And someday maybe you'll understand,

how the way my heart work cause you.

Uca♥

lo ya readers uca nggalau lagi-_- hahahaha maaf ya, btw gimana gimana post kali ini? bismillah ya, hope you like it readers;;D

Ways To Make Girls Smile

• Tell her she is beautiful, not hot or fine
• Hold her hand at any moment you can
• Kiss her on the forahead
• Leave her a voice message to wake up to
• When she is upset, hold her tight and never let her go
• Recognize the small things; they usually mean the most
• Call her sweetie, not baby
• Sing to her no matter how horibble your voice is
• Pick her all over the girls you hang with
• Write her notes (she loves them)
• Play with her hair and if it smells good tell her
• Pick her up, tickle her, and play wrestle with her
• Pick her up and act like your going to drop her and she will scream and yell let her down even thought she loves it
• Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, okay just tell her jokes
• Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you miss her
• Let her fall asleep in your arms
• Carve your names into a tree
• If she's mad, kiss her
• Give her piggybag rides
• Bring her flowers just because
• Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone
• Let her take as many pictures as she wants
• Slow dance with her even if there isn't music playing
• Kiss her in the rain
• Take long walks on the beach at the night with her
• Wait outside her house in the pouring rain to suprise her when she gets home
• When she's ill stay by her bedside
• Play fight with her and let her win
• And most importantly if you love her, tell her

-copied from tumblr- 

someday my prince come and treat me like this mhihi amin yaAllah. aku nunggu kamu lo untuk jadi..... sesuatu yang ngga mungkin ada untuk aku. nothing possible kan? ngga ada yang tau future except Allah kan? tapi ngga tau kenapa pernyataan itu sama sekali ngga ngaruh karena aku ngga yakin kalau kamu will be mine hiks so, now i am realized i'm waiting for nothing:'-( 

xo, Uca♥

Read, Do & Do Not

DO NOT WASTE YOUR TIME FOR:

• Worrying about boys, because boys will come & go.
• Caring who do not like you, because chances are you do not like them either.
• Gossiping, because you affected their lives; they did not affect yours.

WASTE YOUR TIME WITH YOUR FRIENDS! Live for the moment, laugh often. Be immature, do everything. If there is something you will regret in the morning, sleep late & when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends because your friends are what matter most.

Uca♥

Shut Up

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When you are about to face your biggest fear, what do you feel?

And when the situation just makes it worse?

I feel like screaming. Screaming so loud so everyone knows that I am not okay.
That they should just shut up and just let me embrace the fear quietly.
Calmly.
Not being the one who's gonna face it doesn't mean you have the right to say anything about it.
Let me face it calmly, let me go through it with a good feeling so it's gonna be just fine.
Even if it's just a lie.
Let me pretend that it's not going to hurt even just a bit.
After all, it's me who's going to face it.
So please just shut up if you can't encourage me at all.

Just shut up.

Uca♥

Goodbye and Thanks

Halo gebetanku, bagaimana keadaanmu hari ini?

Aku sudah tahu kamu masih memesona seperti biasa, tidak ada yang berubah sejak tiga hari lamanya
 aku tidak melihatmu.

Tetapi, ada yang sudah berubah. Bukan kamu, tetapi aku. Hatiku sudah tidak pekat lagi.
Semakin melebur dan tawar, tidak semanis dahulu setiap pagi aku beruntung melihatmu.

Aku ingat, bagaimana pertama kali aku bisa melihatmu lekat-lekat. Energi yang lain memasuki
tubuhku entah kenapa. Dan aku menjadi girang sendiri saat sudah melaluimu. Hari itu aku
mendapat sesuatu yang spesial.

Aku tak peduli kamu sebagaimanapun kata orang-orang di luar sana. Aku tidak berdosa kan
mengagumi orang sepertimu? Memang tidak, karena ini rasa yang alami, tanpa kontaminasi apapun.

Tetapi sekali lagi, aku hanya cewek pemalu dan penakut. Aku tidak berani maju, tidak akan berani
maju. Aku bukannya tidak pede atau takut kamu menolakku. Aku memang belum siap.
Siap, kata itu selalu menakutiku. Lagipula aku juga wanita tidak seharusnya wanita yang memulai.

Aku tahu intensitas kita telah berkurang. Dan rasanya pesonamu itu tidak cukup membuatku
yakin rasa ini harus dilanjutkan. Aku memang harus maju untuk mengetahui lebih misteri
 dua ekor matamu yang amazing itu. Tetapi aku tidak berencana melakukannya. Entah kenapa
aku memang pecundang.

Aku tidak berharap,aku juga tidak ingin.

Aku nyaman dan senang bisa menyukaimu, itu saja.

Kini, aku meninggalkanmu diam-diam, karena masih banyak hal lain yang harus kuperbaiki,
 sebelum kutunjukkan padamu siapa diriku ini.

Terima kasih ya sudah mencuri hatiku beberapa akhir bulan ini.

                                                                                                                      Astri Sari Firdausa♥

You... Unreachable

Its funny when you like someone but you can't tell it and just keep being a stalker. 
Its funny when you can't even talk to him and just admire him from a distance. 
Its funny when you like someone but he DOESN'T EVEN KNOW YOU. 


You took my heart away with your simplicity. 
Your smile. Your voice. Your smell. Your jokes. It melted me. Hell yes, I was like an ice cream and you were the sun. You melted me with every little thing you did. 


Everybody said that you're not as handsome as what I told to them. But I knew, they just didn't know you, and they said like that because they had no idea how perfect you are in my eyes.
I thought you could be my prince. Because everything I ever dreamed was on you! 
Maybe... You're the prince who always comes in my dreams. Maybe... You're the one who will hurt me the most.

Your voice. Your behavior. Your funny jokes. Your smile. Your eyes. 
Not gonna lie, I like you.
You are almost perfect.
Maybe thats true if I thought that you're the prince. 
But... Prince only exists in a fairy tale right? And fairytale is fake. So... You are just an illusion.

No, I don't wanna try. I won't try to make you be mine. I won't chase you. I won't know you more. I wont. Because I know it well that You are... Unreachable </3

Uca♥

Blame on Who?

"I dont want to grow up. I hate every thing that comes with being grown up. I want to be little again.I hate change."

Blame on who?

Me? My brain? My mind? My decision? Yeah, blame it all on me. Blame me. Blame me. Blame me. Just blame me like you're the smartest one. Like you never do anything wrong. Blame on everything. What else? Your ability is just blaming on someone, am i wrong?

well, if i could blame, i'll blame you for this fuckin life of mine. I tell you, I GET LOST IN THIS MISERABLE WORLD ITS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU! YOU!!!!! Suck. I hate you. Day by day, more and more. I wouldn't be like this if you could be the good one. The good hero, for us! But the fact? Good hero? You couldn't even be a good leader.

Now, can I blame on you?

I'm tired. I know, I've said this for a thousand times. But I'll never get tired of saying I'm tired. Because yes, I am. I am tired as hell! This ain't world. I'm not living. I'm not breathing anymore. I've died. And it feels like I'm in the hell now. Asking to God for helping. For taking me away of this and put me in the heaven. These shits are starting to kill. Slow but sure.

Don't ask me what kind of life I've been going through. Don't ask me about my life. Never ask, "How's life?" to me. I'm totally bad. That will be my permanent answer till God sends down a miracle for me.

Now, I just need a shoulder to cry on. I need a person to hear me. To wipe my tears. Hug me and tell me that everything's gonna be alright. But its funny, I don't even wanna tell anyone about these shits.

And... I just miss my old life. When everything still seemed right on its way. When laughter was filling my day. When everybody put their big smile. When everybody shared their story well. Now, it looks grey. It looks so old. I wish, it ain't such a history. I wish, it will be repeated again. I miss those feelings of happiness. When there was no thing called "Fake Smile". Now, its all changed. And I hate the change.

No more hero. No more leader. Now, I'm walking alone. No one besides me. No one supports me. No one is ready to catch me while I'm getting to fall in a few seconds. I had to pass this all alone. By myself. Well, I'm taught to do all of things by myself. Hard or easy. I had to pass through it all. I am alone. I realize it. Once again, I am alone.. Alone.. Alone.. Really.. Alone? :'(

Really, I miss old.. I miss the feeling of happiness. 

Now its all gloomy.

I'm tired. 

God, may I go with you? :(

sincerely,Uca♥

How about this? this is my second post with english languange semoga lebih baik dari yang pertama dan ngga mengecewakan readers ya,xo!

My patience is limited!

Everybody says, "Don't worry, God will never give you problems which can't be solved by you"
And my deepest heart asks, "Is that true?" 


I don't mind sighing or being ungrateful, but thats what I'm thinking and feeling now. It feels like the problems are too much. It seems like... I've forgotten how's the sense of happiness. That's pathetic. And hurts me so deeply deep.
I thought my life would be better if I already moved. I thought I would have a good brand new life with my mom and bros. But the fact? Never be a reality. Guess what? Yes, I'm feeling so doooown as hell. 

You know hows the feeling in your heart when you're dissapointed so badly bad? Yes, thats what I feel now. I'm angry, I want to cry, I cry, but the condition is still the same. Theres no changing. There are still bunch of problems. It seems like It's good if I just go from this pathetic world.
Well, I never think like that before. And now I suddenly think about "how if I die?". Why do I suddenly think like that? Because theres no supporter around me anymore. Theres no one who 
screams for me. Theres no one who truly cares of me. But I won't die. Cause I remember that tired face, tired of handling me :']
And I hate this feeling. Feeling so regret. Feeling so sad. Feeling so useless. Feeling so complicated. I'm under pressure. I'm stressing out! I want my past back and I'll make it right. I need my happiness back. Just a happiness, can I have it back, GOD? :'(

Now everyday is just the addition of a shit. I be so rude and people start hating on me. I said I didn't care. But I actually care and think about it every minutes. And now thats why I'm down and getting sick. You know it but you just... Don't care. Well... Do you know? I've hated you for sure and theres no room for forgiving. I'm a bad kid? You're a fuckin bad father. I've lost my happiness because of YOU! DON'T YOU KNOW IT? WHEN WILL YOU JUST CARE?
I'm tired of always breaking down. I'm tired of always crying. I be grateful. I even thank God for giving me problems. But I'm also human. My patience is limited. Stop being so selfish and so rude.


And one thing that you have to know, I don't want to make you proud cause I know that you'll never be proud of me. I wish you'll read this and realize that you've made the BIGGEST fault ever and you'll regret it someday!
Remember!! Life is like a wheel, it's spinning, now you're on but who knows for the next day? You may be down and you realize that you already lost me.






(-̩̩-̩̩-̩̩̩_-̩̩-̩̩-̩̩)‎

Uca♥

sumpah bahasa inggris aku masih dibawa standar layak ya? sory banget ini bener bener iseng buat ko readers hehehe hope next post will be better from it ya ☺

Dear Best Friend

You Are Stupid.You Fail.You Weird.You are not Perfect.But That's Okay.I'm like that too.We laugh at the randomest things.You know my ugliest side. Even though we disagree sometimes, we never fight. When I'm sad,You were always there to make sure I'm Okay. Thanks for being there for me.

I LOVE YOU GAES mwa!:-*

Tagged: Ting² - Momo - Olit - kindship8c&Others!:D

xo,Uca makhluk banyak dosa tp bukan setan dan makhluk baik tp bukan malaikat :-s


Uca♥

Alay vs Gaul

buat kalian semua pasti udah gak asing  lagi deh denger kata ini. alay dan gaul. Istilah 

yang sering diperbincangkan anak-anak muda. Istilah yang mengelompokkan pergaulan remaja. dan tentunya, ini membuat gue risih. mari kita artikan istilah alay dan gaul ini.

ALAY~(dari berbagai sumber, tidak bermaksud menyinggung)

alay atau orang udik atau orang kampung (dalam arti kampungan), 

merupakan salah satu gelar yang ngga boleh banget didapetin sama setiap remaja.Dominannya,
 istilah ini untuk menggambarkan anak yg sok keren, secara 

fashion, karya (musik) maupun kelakuan secara umum. Konon asal usulnya, alay diartikan "anak kampung", karena anak kampung yang rata-rata berambut merah dan berkulit sawo gelap karena kebanyakan main layangan.

mereka biasanya ketinggalan jaman, sok kaya, sok imut, sok cantik, sok keren, sok gaul, sok techno padahal waktu ditanya kode HTML aja gak bisa. Untuk lagu barat, mereka tidak tahu lagu barat yang sedang nge-tren dan mereka(orang alay) hanya tahu lagu barat dari jaman eighty dan ninety doang. mereka juga suka banget pake tulisan atau teks yang GedE keCiL-gEdEkeciL. 

Faktor yang menyebabkan bisa melalui media TV (sinetron), dan musisi dengan dandanan seperti
itu.

penulisan orang alay (menurut dari berbagai sumber):

- iya : ia

- kamu: kamuh,kammo,kamoh,kamuwh,kamyu,qamu,etc

- aku : akyu,aq,akko,akkoh,aquwh,etc

- maaf: mu'uph,muphs,maav,etc

- sorry: cowyie,cory,tory(?),etc

- add : ett,etths,aad,edd,etc

- for : vo,fur(zz),pols,etc

- lagi : agi,agy

- makan: mums,mu'umhs,etc

- lucu : lutchuw,uchul,luthu,etc

- siapa: cppa,cp,ciuppu,siappva,etc

- apa : uppu,apva,aps,etc

- narsis: narciezt,narciest,etc

GAUL~

(dari berbagai sumber, tidak bermaksud menyinggung)

istilah  gaul, pasti kalian udah tau semua lah. gaul itu bedaaaa jauh banget sama alay. gaul itu dikategorikan sebagai anak eksis yang dikenal banyak orang. mereka tidak ketinggalan jaman, tau segala hal, gak kuper, gak norak dan anak mall. mereka juga biasanya sangat uptodate, fashion bgt, dan sangat mengikuti tren. *padahal sih kalo menurut aku enggak juga.*

ada juga dengan istilah lain. mereka yang merokok, suka mabok dan pecandu narkoba biasanya nawarin narkotika/rokok/nyisa dengan menggunakan kata gaul "kamu gak nyoba ini berarti kamu gak GAUL..." kalo udah yang kaya gitu mah ini udah  salahbanget.

Sekarang, jika ingin mengetahui arti gaul itu sebenarnya, buka deh Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia. Dan cari pada halaman “G” istilah “gaul” 

arti gaul itu adalah hidup berteman atau bersahabat. dapat disimpulkan bahwa anak gaul adalah anak yang hidup berteman. Jadi, dari mana kita mendapatkan bahwa anak gaul itu harus menggunakan pernak-pernik itu?  harus nge tren? harus sering nonkrong di mall-mall? harus ngerokok nyisa gitu? kayaknya sih beda jauh sama arti 'gaul' yang sebenarnya ya.....

jujur, aku enggak suka dengan istilah alay dan gaul itu. dulu emang sih aku setuju, tapi kok lama-lama jadi risih ya.

contohnya deh,

"ah gak gaul kamu kalo gak ngerokok" 

"ke mall seminggu berapa kali?" 

dan lain sebagainya. aku yakin setelah kalian dibilang seperti itu sama orang lain, kalian langsung ganti style kalian layaknya dengan anak gaul. apa iya semua orang harus gaul dengan cara seperti itu? ini adalah tuntutan pergaulan remaja yang sepertinya 'mengharuskan' kita seperti itu. 

ada juga karena kita cuma mau kenalan dan temenan doang, langsung di cap sebagai anak sksd. ini gimana caranya aku mau temenan kalo pengen kenalan aja udah dibilang sksd-_-

(sekali lagi, gak maksud nyinggung ya)

terus juga risih gak sih dikelompokin kelompokin kayak gitu? kuper mainnya sama kuper, eksis mainnya sama anak eksis..................apacoba.

aku udah sebel banget kalo mainanya udah kelompok kelompokan. kita semua sama kaliiiiii. mau itu orang kuper, eksis kek, apalah itu.....apa iya orang yang kuper dan lain sebagainya harus dicap sebagai alay?

emang, aku tau, semua risih sama tulisan GedE keCiL-gEdEkeciL. risih diartikan karena emang tulisannya susah dibaca. bikin aku harus ngulang tulisan tsb berkali kali. tulisan gak usah ribet-ribet lah. style juga yang seadanya aja, gak usah di lebih lebihkan.  kalian bisa ngomong baik-baik, "aku gak ngerti tulisan lo.."  ngasih taunya juga gak usah pake celaan atau nyindir.

begitupun dengan anak gaul. 

"aku gak gaul kali"

"aku bukan anak gaul kok"

"sok gaul banget sih"  

gak usah munafik lah bukan anak gaul. pasti semua orang gak mau kan di cap orang alay?

waktu booming fs, yang ngeview pasti dominan golongan atas (gaul). pas booming fb, golongan bawah (alay) merajalela di fs.

dulu tULisAn be9iN1 pernah dipake sama banyak golongan atas. tapi ketika disadari itu norak, jadi ngga jaman lagi. akhirnya sekarang dipake sama golongan bawah. gue dulu inget banget dimana orang-orang itu selalu make tulisan gede kecil. nge tren banget deh.

yang jadi pertanyaan, kenapa harus kaya gitu? ketika mereka mencoba, kita memarahi. ketika kita tak butuh lagi dan mereka mencoba, kita menghina. lantas apa mau kita? apa ngga bisa untuk gak terlalu mengurusi orang lain?

kasian juga kali mereka, alay kan juga manusia. semua sama. gak ada yang beda. gak usah khawatir lah kalo kalian emang gak tau lagu-lagu barat, gak modis, jarang ke mall dll. gak usah memaksakan kehendak. apa adanya aja. eksis gaul dsb gak dibawa mati kok-_-

gak usah juga dengan km ngeliat gayanya, tulisannya, km langsung bilang dia alay dan gak mau berteman dengan orang itu. siapa tau, dibalik semua itu, dia baik. begitu juga anak gaul. dengan lo melihat dia yang tren abis bikin km mau mau temenan sama dia. mungkin aja dibalik dari semua itu, dia bukan orang yang baik. jangan terpaku dengan keberadaan anak alay dan anak gaul. temenan sama siapa aja.

soal style anak alay..................suka suka merekalah style mereka kayak gimana. aku  juga suka risih kalo ngeliat gaya mereka yang terlalu 'berlebihan". tapi masa iya km temenan sama orang harus ngeliat dari style nya dulu? nyari temen mah dari hatinya, bukan cuma stylenya doang. atau gak gini deh, km dulu juga pernah kaya gitu kan? kenapa ribet banget ngurusin orang lain?

maaf ya yang ngerasa kesindir atau gimana, gak ada maksud apapun, serius. aku  cuma ingin berpendapat tentang pergaulan anak jaman sekarang aja. semua dari pengamatan gue selama ini. 

maaf juga kalo ada yang gak berpendapat sama pemikiran aku ini.......semua manusia gak ada yang sempurna ya.

inget, kalo mau jadi anak gaul, intinya cuma satu:  

berteman dengan banyak orang. bukan diartikan dengan harus mengikuti tren pernak pernik, merokok dan sebagainya.

istilah gaul dan alay saya temui di berbagai sumber yang saya cari di gugel.

terimakasih.  

Salam LovePeace&gawl\m/

Uca♥